My Tears

They
cleanse me
defend me
explain me
confuse me
terrify me

I have put myself in a prison of emotion
The gates are locked
I've lost the keys
I can't see beyond this wall of broken dreams

Rescue me- I'm drowning
In a pool of my own tears
I'm sinking slowly
Inch by Inch
Moment by Moment
Year by Year

If no one is there with a helping hand
If no one has the key
Somehow I must save myself
So that I can breathe


Another day, another fight... This time, it was over water. I got the blame because I had an 'attitude', and I wanted to scream- IF YOU WANT ATTITUDE, I'LL SHOW YOU ATTITUDE! Why would anyone let something like bottled water cause a fight? I keep thinking we're getting back on track, but everyday, Aaron and I find something else to argue about. And then, while he goes on with his day, I stay stuck in the moment. It's like a broken record, playing the same words over and over.

I'm trying to smile, but every time I start to grin, I feel more tears sliding down my cheek. This is not worth ruining another day, so why can't I just stop replaying everything?? I will shut down if I let this continue. I know myself well enough to know that once I reach a certain point, I let everything cave in on me. And I don't want that to happen.

So, it's time to crank the music, sing along, and dance like a fool!